среда, 05 сентября 2007
Hallucinogenic Toreador
I saw God, once.
I was old, or at least old enough
To realize that there was no God.
And I saw God.
Looking in a mirror
I witnessed myself, devoid,
Slicing fine lines, parallel across
My placid neck.
“How’s the show?”
It’s wonderful. You’ll never forget it.
Death teeters on my ring finger, and
My hand drops.
Sleet and flames
Scorch through my forsaken veins
And paint a mobile mural upon
My clammy eyelids:
She was beautiful,
The woman bathing on the sea.
However small, I saw her first:
The only thing familiar.
She wasn’t mine.
She’d never be mine because
She was me. She was lost, too—
Ceaselessly stagnant.
Armless Venus
Judges me over and through
The holes in her back front.
Stop crying, please,
I didn’t know.
I’ll try to do better next time, but
You said the moon would eat me.
Set the table?
Their wings, they—
Just stop it! Don’t look at me!
The Dalmatian is going to know.
He’s not even there.
Everything burns.
Her face is everywhere I don’t look
And the sea of dots waves and multiplies
In thunderous color
That bull is going
To be God, now. But it’s only wheels
And it sounds Green. Stop. Stop. Red.
There He is.
Quicksilver tears
Stream from His eyes and between
Her worthless breasts. Venus Penis,
have you seen us?
You have no brain.
Broken upright savior blooming here
Before the gates. I’ll never go there.
They’re not mine.
It’s my blood
That stains His cape, and the bull knows.
No, Don’t. I know, Don’t. I know Don’t.
He’ll kill God.
I’m Him now.
Fuck. He’ll kill me myself him I.
You want to die. I want him to drink
The water.
And that’s how it happened.
YedaOfSwatlandia